I'm writing into a void, I know, as I've not written for longer than I was writing and I'm sure everyone's given up on me. Strangely comforting, in a way, to think no one's reading--or waiting for me to produce something interesting. Part of the reason I stopped, I think, is that I don't feel able to communicate anything meaningful in this medium. Up to now, I've used the internet either as a form of entertainment or business communication or just for quick information bits. When I miss my friends and family, I call them up or we go out. Or I see them through the regular course of events. Now the internet is my only way to keep in touch with most of you. And I'm not doing very well with it. The funny thing is, I talk to you all the time. Walking home from the store, digging in my new garden, cooking up some eggs. I have little conversations with you. I write blog entries about things I've noticed that I think you'd find amusing. But come some free time when I could sit down and write, I'm exhausted or I have a headache, or I really should get that other thing done. Then there's the pressure of wanting to have an entertaining and insightful blog, one that you'd read not only to keep up and see how I'm doing, but because it's a great read.
Unfortunately, creative reading is not my main pursuit, and a blog requires frequent updating to be useful. I'll try to be better about just putting up what I'm thinking about, polished or not.
Given up? No such luck.
And don't worry about infrequent updates - the technology these days is quite well suited to the intermittent.
And don't worry about being "interesting" - we all love you guys and are happy to read about how things are going - whatever it is. Your on a big adventure!
Posted by: John Galt at October 5, 2005 06:36 PMWhen it first occurred to me that people might be reading my postings it seriously freaked my shit out. Suddenly I started worrying if I was posting enough or if what I posted was good enough or funny enough or whatever.
That way lies madness. Just write when you feel like it. Simple, straightforward observations of your surroundings are pretty interesting to those of us far away, especially since we already have an emotional investment in the main characters!
Posted by: flamingbanjo at October 5, 2005 06:48 PMWell, it's all been great so far. You could in fact get much less interesting and still be interesting, also stylish.
Phoneblogging? Of course, then you'd be the odd foreigner reciting things into her phone as you walk home from the store. Probably better to do it with the eggs.
Posted by: clew at October 6, 2005 03:05 AMI only check this out sporadically so I didn't notice you were gone. (But I'm glad you're back!... or at least you were on oct 5. now it's 10/20. see what I mean?
Posted by: Bruce at October 30, 2005 03:14 AM