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I was getting ready to complain about already feeling trapped by the winter when i realized that today is the last day of my "summer vacation", meaning that I will be starting classes again tomorrow and 2/5ths of my work week is now absorbed.
I've been thinking a lot lately about how I should start swimming, or weightlifting, or something that makes my blood pump a little faster. I know that I'll generally feel better when I do, but because I don't feel better NOW, it's hard to make myself go in the first place. I also tend to crap out on that kind of self-commitment after a week or two, so I'm already depressed about disappointing my future self.

Perhaps school will be a motivator. Once classes start, I'm never, ever going to see Cake again, because he goes to school or works every night now, which means he'll be on restaurant-schedule (wake up late, work late, stay out till early next morning, sleep, repeat) all the time. I've been granted access to his extra bike, and with no handsome distractions, perhaps I'll overcome my fears and take to the streets.

I think I would taken it up earlier, but biking is one of the things I'm rather hesitant to do in my costume. Not so much the skirts, but the shoes. I just bought myself some new fluevogs (I WILL NOT be outdone, cake.) and I worry that I'll kick off and immediatly wedge $190 worth of quality footwear between the spokes.

So keds and pants, here I come. Probably.

Posted by Sonya at September 27, 2004 11:13 AM