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Hello Wake Up Wake Up

I have quite a lot of paper to write by Friday. Not as much as I had thought I had. It's 10 pages vs 15 pages, but in Five Paragraph Essay land, the difference between 10 and 15 pages is the difference between "These are points and arguments I think are well rounded and pertinent" and "These are points and arguments that are almost total marshmallow fluff crap but can't really be edited out because they're, like, 2/3rds of the 13th page and I want to watch Adult Swim already!"

The problem with trying to write my papers at work is that I also like to write my weblog at work, and until my weekday entry is complete I have a really hard time thinking about any other writing. I'll go to summarize the introduction and instead try out a few lines about how The Derby has a moth curse. I'll try to come up with a rock solid thesis and instead think about how Taxi Dispatchers have the same job I do but they don't have to be nice. I sometimes make 2 or 3 never-published attempts at posting a day and if I haven't come up with anything satisfactory by 3pm, I start writing and stick with whatever crap I get. This is where I hope my writing actually shows improvement, in Last Ditch Effort Land. If my crappiest writing is better than my crappiest writing used to be, we're going somewhere.

The point is that in order to complete my paper in time to get it edited, I'm going to come here and stick with my first attempt, first thing in the morning. In the afternoons I might post portions of the little paper for your copywriting/editing delight, or I might come out swinging like I've got post traumatic stress syndrome and cursing like I was raised by 14 year olds. Wait and see.